I’ve read some good books in my life. Excellent books, actually.
But I guess I’ll never fulfill the dream of writing something good. I can’t help it! Everytime I start working on a new project, my imagination just staggers and it finally stops any kind of idea flow.
So I decided to stop trying and blog a little.
One of the things I have to talk about is my Savior and Lord Jesus Christ. I’ve seen the wordpress blog Idylls for the King and I got dazzled with the beauty and depth of the articles.
I thought of doind things like that, but I can’t. I can’t write poems or short stories… everything I write is very very long. So I wouldn’t be a good applicant for Idylls for the King.
My story is this: I’m a brazilian girl who’s just got married and lives in Cuiaba, Mato Grosso. I’m from Sao Paulo originally, but God’s Purpose brought me to this little forgotten place.
I’m here, living in a beautiful farm (yes, along with other 6 families and 7 dogs – not to mention the cattle, the horses and the pigs), working to exclude all the past dreadful habits I’ve cultivated along 20 years of existence, trying to cultivate new ones such as: cooking
– feeding the animals;
– waking up really early;
– living in a tent (which tears apart if you just glare at it!)
– wearing the same clothes;
– eating simple plain food;
– among other things.
But I guess the best and most important thing I’m learning in this new life is how to listen to God’s Voice.
Really! I decided to reconsider everything I have ever lived with Christ. I erased everything. I must tell the truth: I came to the conclusion that all I’ve ever lived in my Christian life was nothing but a shadow of true Christianity. My relationship with God was frail; my life, driven by myself alone; my future, bleak and confused; my wishes, purely human.
In a nutshell – I WAS USELESS FOR THE KINGDOM AND A DISGRACE TO GOD.
No, I’m not at all exagerating! We must know that God’s standars are too high for us mortals, and if we are thinking much of ourselves (or just thinking we’re not too bad) then the devil has control of our lives.
So, now I’m learning (in babysteps) what is to SERVE the Lord. And I’m quite happy and no longer feeling empty and alone. Of course… I have my moments of total dispair when I go “I’ll never get anywhere!!!!” But God’s gentle voice steers me back to Him and He covers me with His wings.
I know no one’s very interested in my spiritual growth, but I have to say: Folks, THERE IS MORE!
YES!!! There’s more to God than just religion! We don’t have to put our masks and cloaks to look like Christians or to feel like servants of God. We can actually BE servants of God and dwell on His mighty presence.
To do so, we must repent! Repentance is the only way to Jesus! We must see what a fraud we are and how selfish we are. And be honest! Who’s *not* thinking of himself when making decisions? When no one’s looking, what do we think? What do we do?
Repent! John the Baptist would say.
The Kingdom is near!
And let’s read the Bible! No! DIVE INTO THE BIBLE! LET GO OF YOURSELF WHILE READING THE WORDS OF JESUS, THE STORIES OF MEN THE WORLD DID NOT DESERVE!
And then we will start seeing how mistaken we were! How full of religion and hypocrisy!
If you want to learn how to repent Steve Gallagher’s “The Walk to Repentance” is a must-read.
Well… I think that’s enough for the day.